I have to tell you about the big chapter that closed out Wednesday, as my final chemotherapy treatment went down as planned. Join me in a virtual high five! Hurray!
It was a day of mixed feelings. Of course I was looking forward to wrapping up this phase of my care. But with two weeks between treatments, I was almost back to feeling normal. Even knowing it was the last time, it was hard to get back in that chair.
Here’s how it goes: I get in the chair and receive my pre-meds that help me fight nausea. Then my nurse rolls over and begins with the Adriamycin, pushing the red fluid in with a big, round syringe very slowly over 15 minutes.
To be honest, it always freaked me out a little. I never looked down to watch. So I’d ask her, “How are we doing now?” Afterward came the Cytoxan, which by comparison was a breeze.
This week, going up the escalator in Kirklin for my pre-treatment labs, I had a moment of realization, “This is the last time! Wonderful!”
Because it was my last treatment, on Wednesday I was allowed to ring a brass bell by the door. A plaque alongside it says this:
“Ring this bell, Three times well, Its toll to clearly say;
This treatment’s done, My course is run, And I am on my way. – Irve Le Moyne.”
A footnote on plaque says “Soli deo gloria,” Latin for “Glory to God alone.”
People say to me, “How’re you doing this?” or “You seem so strong.”
To that I would say, it’s really a team that makes it work.
It has always been hard for me to receive. And early on in this journey, somebody told me “you need to allow that because people want to do it and it is a blessing to them.”
So I have done just that. In doing so, I’ve opened myself up to a love so selfless, it takes my breath away. Thank you!
If you’ve kept up with my posts here, you know my sister, Deb, hosted Thanksgiving and I’ll be at her home again on Christmas afternoon. Another family member is hosting Christmas Eve.
Also in the category of those who I hope are receiving blessings of their own in return: My priest, who helped me begin this journey with the sacrament of healing, and other clergy friends Charles and Christine; my therapist, Vicki Addaway; my trainer, Susan, who I’ve mentioned here before; at work, my Bridgeworth Financial family; and so very many dear friends.
So when I’m asked those questions, I think to myself, “That’s how I do it. All that.”
You give me courage. I am determined.
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The power of prayer embraces you everyday, its magic bounds us to one another. From our heavenly Father he receives all energy near and far; sending it back in strength, wisdom, determination, love, kindness, restoration and above all your own miracle. Laura, please know that there has not been one day that has gone by that I did not pray for you since last April and will continue to pray always. Your truly amazing! Love, Sue
What happen to ur bama team? Go war eagle. Still love ya.
Way to go girl. High 5! So proud of u. Love ya.
I so proud of you and what you ha accomplished so far. I know I would not have done nearly as well as you have. I am really glad this part is over for you. Get some rest and before you know it, you wil feel “almost normal ” again. (Whatever that is!!!). Hope to see you soon.
Please remember you are always in our thoughts and prayers.
Thanks for sharing your experience. By doing so I think you make all of us stronger.
I celebrate with and for you Laura. You have reached another milestone. Your journey continues and your courage inspires others!! I can hear those bells (music to our ears). Beth
A big ole virtual high-five to you. I’ll look forward to having a real one with you in the near future.
BTW, I’ve recommended your website to a woman just diagnosed with breast cancer and still in a stage of denial and confusion (seems appropriate to me). I cannot think of a better source of inspiration and guidance for her than your website, so I thank you for us both.
Laura, I’m ringing my bell “for whom the bell tolls” — three times!
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